Tired , tired, tired and cold
For one so young i feel so old
My heart it beats and starts to fold
Starts to fold under the strain
When your heart beats, mine beats again
Mine beats too fast its hard, you see
To try and think positively
I’m so tired, exhausted even
It feels as though my poor heart is bleeding
I’m seething with anger but I’m also scared
I feel so down so unprepared
Unprepared for what’s to come
So unprepared so over run
Over run and out of breath
Scared of the time that I have left
Will there be pain will there be hurt?
Shall I lie ‘neath stones and dirt?
Shall i die?
I’m on red alert.
If this heart continues to beat so fast
How long can i cope?
How long will i last?
Is my heart broken beyond repair?
At first I pretended that I didn’t care
I didn’t care that my heart isn’t good
But before i never understood
I never understood the implications
All i can see is doctors and hospitals…..
All the medication….
It hurts so much i feel so low
Im cursed with a life riddled with woe
So many tragedies
so many deaths
problems with my heart…
i get no rest.
I get no rest but sleep so much
Why am I so damn fucked up?
The tablets only make me weak
Make me even more tired
I cannot speak
I cannot speak of what’s to come
For i don’t know
I feel so dumb
I want to know what the future holds
I’m far too young…
To feel this damn old!
